What Changes in a Year

A few days ago was the one year anniversary of The Conscious Perspective – and I’m wondering if maybe this is becoming a personal blog after all.

A year ago I felt inspired – like I had a message to spread.

Today, one year later, I feel like throwing in the towel. I feel defeated.

I have had some amazing progress in the personal growth department. I look at everything differently now. I have grown – and  luckily it is irreversable. I don’t want to go back, and I continue to move forward.

I am grateful for what I have and I am not unhappy – in fact, I am quite the opposite. I get to do what I love doing every day – being a parent, a writer, a Charitable Influence-er.

But right now I am overwhelmed. 2012 has been a whirlwind year thus far, and it continues to throw curve balls every which way.

Life, death – and everything in between.

It’s become clear that instead of New Year’s, my Birthday each year causes me to reflect most.

This year I became an aunt to a beautiful girl who has faced, and is still facing many challenges. She was born with Down Syndrome and required surgery almost immediately after her birth due to a stomach issue. Heart surgery is just around the corner for her – but she will be okay. She is a strong little girl that refuses to accept any limitations that are placed on her.

I also learned that I am going to become a Mother again in October – a third son.

And less than a week ago, I lost a close friend to cancer at the age of 33. She leaves behind a daughter not yet 2 years old.

These are a few of the major things that have jolted my existence – cracked open my heart a little more.

Last year I launched this blog on the cusp of my 28th birthday, and as 29 sits just around the corner, I wonder where I will go next. What I will learn, and what surprises are in store.